{"id":374,"date":"2019-11-14T02:26:51","date_gmt":"2019-11-14T02:26:51","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/chrisfaulkner.org\/?p=374"},"modified":"2020-01-24T16:22:40","modified_gmt":"2020-01-24T16:22:40","slug":"im-not-giving-up-im-giving-in","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/chrisfaulkner.org\/index.php\/2019\/11\/14\/im-not-giving-up-im-giving-in\/","title":{"rendered":"I&#8217;m not giving up, I&#8217;m giving in"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>This is a story about loss, my loss and if read correctly could be your gain. Consider this the last thing I give back to an unknowing society because I\u2019m giving in, not giving up. I\u2019m 49 years old, as a kid, I grew up during the 70s. I always said Yes Sir and No ma&#8217;am, tried to be respectable and I was always cognizant of the world around me. I cared about people I never knew or would possibly never know and this has been my steady decline. Again, this is a story about loss.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>My life has always had its ups and downs and while I thought for a moment, back when, that it was other people\u2019s fault.. the actual reality to it all was that everything was exactly my fault. I had always considered and toyed with the fact that others may be at fault for each predicament that fell through underneath my feet, and while for the majority of it, it was my fault for allowing such nefarious people to put such extreme sanctions and hardship on my life. I was so preoccupied with trying to make things right and fair that I was slowly nicking away at my sanity and liberty and I didn\u2019t realize it. Took me 49 years for it to smack me in the face but hey, it\u2019s a start, right?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I have to realize that I\u2019m not the knight in shining armor, I\u2019m not Superman, I\u2019m not there to save the day. I\u2019m not here to alleviate other people\u2019s problems. I need to stop telling random people \u201cIf you need something, call me\u201d. That has gotten me in more trouble than its worth. Because ultimately, 95-98% of the people in the world are out to succeed above you. These people will step on your head and heart to get where they are going and after they are done with crushing you, they look down upon your empty shell with pity, shame, and no remorse.. almost with piety and pretentiousness that you find yourself wondering what happened.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>These people are to be avoided, at all costs, as if they have the plague. The problem with this is, some of these people are hard to detect. Which brings me to my next statement.&nbsp;<strong>Beware of narcissists<\/strong>. They are everywhere and they are very good at hiding their reality. The problem with \u201cnarcs\u201d is how can you be nice to everyone without getting taken advantage of. You\u2019d think that something like this would be simple but it\u2019s not. Usually, the simplest action is the right one and in this case, the simple answer is \u201c<strong><em>You can\u2019t be nice to everyone<\/em><\/strong>\u201c. People can and will take advantage of you if you allow them to. How does one find the balance to all this? If the world is full of people that will crush your life as opposed to the ones that will bring a sense of balance to your life. Again, You can\u2019t be nice to everyone nor should you. Again, the simple thing to do is to evaluate every one of your relationships and figure out who was there for you and who wasn\u2019t. If you are a narcissist and you are reading this, you are the lowest form of life. To take advantage of people\u2019s goodwill and crush their spirit is probably some of the most despicable things you can do. To lie, cheat and steal is invariably some of the worst things you can do to someone that has rolled themselves out like a doormat and you took advantage of that to clean your boots.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>To also take sides with a narcissist makes you an even ally of it. This means that you allow that person to take advantage of someone to ruin their life. This means that you agree with Narcissism. If you are reading this and I have personally shunned you in my life, it\u2019s probably for this reason alone. Call me an asshole, call me mean\u2026 all this does is further how I feel about you because I know I\u2019ve been nothing but nice to you and you still are the piece of shit you are and always have been. It\u2019s not my loss, it\u2019s your loss and if that makes me an asshole, then so be it, I\u2019m an asshole. But understand this, I wouldn\u2019t be an asshole if you hadn\u2019t taken sides with a piece of shit and you are just that much of a piece of shit and so low to the ground that you can\u2019t apologize. I don\u2019t need you and have fun being manipulated by the narcissist and don\u2019t come crying to me when they take advantage of you, because they will.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This is a story about loss, my loss and if read correctly could be your gain. Consider this the last thing I give back to an unknowing society because I\u2019m giving in, not giving up. I\u2019m 49 years old, as a kid, I grew up during the 70s. 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